ok here I am

My Dads been at the hospital since Monday so juggling, visiting dad, taking care of my supposedly adult son he is 19, and my 6 and a half going on teenage daughter, work, weight loss clinic classes, and boyfriend time all week, but guess what I have made it to the gym all week as well, have to say proud of my self for following through, I have had so many ups and downs on this journey to fining a new me, I have lost my mom and my best friend Tim. 

My original highest recorded weight that I know was 
322 on June 24, 2012 I had gotten myself down to 299.4 out of those darn 300's on September 12, 2013, the 299.4 was the last I recorded and on October 4th 2012 Tim died and it shattered me I actually couldn't eat and lost a bunch of weight but gained that when I ate again.  

In June I called the weight loss clinic again, I started weighing in again on their scale and I was 314.5 on July 1 2013, so that 22lbs lost was then like only 7, Blah, No Good. I am back on track the coca cola is gone from my life again, I am drinking tea with only milk and not sugar thanks to my love Jon.  I  Am On This Journey AGAIN!!!  But whats different this time is I have someone who supports me, he loves me for me, but knows me losing weight and being healthy is best for the future. 

so here are new stats from July 1 2013
314.5 July 1 2013
311.0 July 8 2013 - 3.5 for a total of 11 since last year
311.0 July 15 2013  same
310.4 July 24 2013  -.6  total -4.1 clinic and 11.6 my journey

So anyways

regarding school I have 2 more years to go I decided I wasn't ready to intern this September, and they don't do them in January so I must wait till the following decisions, I have 5 classes left for the next 2 semesters and then interning and policy class the last year (2 semesters)

I really could use a new job, not getting many hours.

as for my weight loss I kinda flubbed after Tim died, Back on track as of July 1st and back at the bariatric clinic. most likely will have the gastric sleeve surgery I do not wish to have the bypass or the band.

as of July 1st I was back at 314.5
July 8  311 -3.5  

tomorrow is weigh in and another class for the bariatric clinic

I don't know what just happened new post here

    So anyways I was actually feeling quite alone without my soul friend/ best friend Tim Cannon who passed away. But having lost a boyfriend in the past I knew I must move on. 

    I jumped on to the meetme, plenty of fish and such and I was talking to random guys, never met them or gave out person info. I was talking to a guy that I was supposed to meet but that never happened or went anywhere.

    My friend Andrea told me to try OK Cupid so I did started talking to two  decent men on there. Corey and Jon.. I have made a friend of Corey he has found the one he wants to marry in Texas. 

    But Jon, well we met on February 10th, we were going to meet at the Essex st Grille in Haverhill but it was closed due to the giant snow storm. However we met at TGI Fridays at the loop, we met at 4 and didn't leave till after 8pm. Great conversation, of course we had texted and emailed almost a month prior to meeting. I was scared to meet a stranger

Guess what? Best Thing I Ever Did :)

Post on my weight issue and school and work and rest of life soon

I am bad at this but back on track

Loss and gain.. I have lost Tim Cannon but gained the man whom I seriously believe is the love of my life
Here is a pic:

Back in Feburary 2013 this is our third date