i don't know how

but now i am down to 260lbs ..i am fitting in two pairs of jeans that i did not fit into a few weeks ago. so thats 30lbs gone now

here is an update

well i am now 265. so thats 5 more pounds gone. After christmas i am joining the ymca for exercise i really need to start exercising. i am starting to flab a bit on my belly yuck

I have been so sick last 2 days

I don't know what it is some type of tummy bug or something, i can barely eat. and can't hold anything in my system. but now i am down to 270 so thats 20lbs gone now. so there is a little benifit to being sick. on to another subject my baby girl turned 1 yr old last week on nov 17. I cannot believe its been a whole year since my little one was born, she ate her thanksgiving meal what a mess... well i guess that is about all i've got to say today

how time flies

my baby girl will be one in a week i cannot believe it. seems like she was just born. as for my diet its going truely slow i am only down 2 lbs so now i an 273... but that is minus 17 from 290.. I know it will go better when i can join the ymca which should be in like 2 weeks as i am paying my washer drier set off tomorrow so i'll have the money for it. well i guess thats all for now

another baby step

Well on thursday I took a choices workshop at the college, I wanted some help to help me choose correctly. It came out that I am pretty much suited for human services. Considering I have been thinking about being and early intervention worker or like an intake worker for elder services. So I am checking out social services trying to see if child development can be combined with that as well. So thats all thats happening so far for positives I won't even get started on the negatives

Another day on the road

I was feeling kind of down in the dumps today, but still eating within my points.. in fact i have 6 more that i am supposed to eat. So today its just the baby and I , Dylan went up to Maine to stay with his uncles. The baby has been in a grouchy mood today, maybe she will be getting more teeth. Well I just decided to update this blog as to keep myself motivated on my journey here, It probably won't be a daily thing but it will be at least once a week so i can post a weigh in

Well i decided i need to find a new me

( this picture is when i was about 290 lbs)

well I have decided that I need to make changes in my life, I want to find a new me. I need to change in some drastic ways both emotional and physical. I have been on a pretty emotional rollercoaster for quite a while in my life. Last year started with my boyfriend of 3 years dying and ended me having my second child a babygirl Alexis who will be 1 year old on November 17,2007. I also have a son Dylan who will be 14 in March. So anyways Rob the love of my life my childrens father came back to me after my boyfriend had died, He promised me the world but it hasn't quite worked that way. It has me kind of depressed because having him with us being a family is always what i have dreamed even when i tried moving past the first time he broke my heart to shreds... so thats the emotional... as for the physical part i was about 250 lbs when i got pregnant ended being 290 lbs day before delivery when Alexis was one month was back to 250 lbs thats good 40 lbs but i was on depo and gained 40 lbs right back well i haven't really done anything but decided to follow the points system by weight watchers yesterday so i had to weigh myself and i was at 275 lbs so somehow i lost 15 lbs !! well i certainly can't tell.. But here is a plan I have a water jug that holds 74 oz i want to drink one a day at least, I want to follow the points.. I need to start exercizing eventually i want to join the ymca.
I also think i want to find a councilor maybe that would help as well..

Well heres to finding a new me