tough times October 7 2012 Rest In Peace my sunshine

 My best friend whom I actually refer to as my soul friend passed
away suddenly on October 4 and I am devastated.
Tim Cannon walked into my life almost 5 years ago we clicked and became best friends, we knew all of each others secrets. We always talked for hours on end. When I met Tim I suffered from severe low self esteem but he made me feel beautiful and Loved and he tfouched my heart after I had it closed off, He broke the wall that I build around my self. I wake up daily wishing it was all just a nightmare.

 Everyone Tim had knew whether it was a passing moment at one of his gigs or if you were lucky to be his friend, and man he has an abundance of friends who are grieving for this wonderfull man who I am honored to call my soul friend because he has a piece of my soul and I have a piece of his. He was a multi talented musician and a great friend, brother, son, and uncle

Daddy of his little doggie Rocky kisses

You will live on in my heart and throuh your music, Til the day we are reunited in Heaven

But yesterday I had a moment of serenety this is what I exerienced:


I had an experience today and it really brought me peace, initially early this morning I got a text and woke up thinking it was a text from Tim, maybe I was dreaming of him? I cried, didn't want to do anything but had to go out. so anyways I am driving in my car and for a half hour straight I heard songs that tim did for covers, seriously this has never happened and I have this station on everyday, last song was don't stop believing, anyways I get out of my car and realize its a sunny day and its been crappy a week now and it was weird it was like clouds parted and the sun was shining at me, then I had the weirdest feeling like someone was touchin my skin and got this instant peace and serene feeling, I felt him with me and had this thought he once told me we would be friends forever and I know he is here with me in my heart everyday and all afternoon I felt so much better, shared this with his sister and brother, i had the thought he is happy he is with his dad and still with us, it was an amazin experience